My small comprehension of the world has been so broadened in the last two weeks. Hopefully forever. There has been so much to think over and take in that trying to put it into even verbal words has been difficult. I know this for a fact, because I try to explain things to Hon, and he tells me to finish my thought.
All I have to offer is, "That was it."
See, I'm still making no sense. Which would explain the lack of blogging lately.
But before I continue on with the antics of my lovely children, my obsession with gardening, and the way I'm aging before my very eyes, I'll try to get a few thoughts down here.
Two weeks ago I went to a weekend spiritual retreat called "The Great Banquet." All I knew about the weekend was that I would have time with God (72 hours that is), we'd be mainly in the (very nice) basement of our church, and due to the name I figured there would be plenty of food. Any one who had been just said I should go, and that it was amazing.
To be honest, I really didn't see any need to go. I felt my relationship with God was pretty good. I'm really happy with my life. I didn't need a spiritual retreat. I felt great about things. What more could God need from me?
I was scared that God would ask more of me.
God is so, so, so very good.
The weekend was amazing, and you should definitely go the first chance you have.
It's a weekend where God will tell you the thing He most needs you to know about himself. Your weekend will be eye opening, heart wrenching, and completely heart fulfilling. It will be all about God and all about you, and it will be all about getting you and God closer together through whatever means you need that to happen.
I saw a little slice of heaven, and let me tell you - it's gonna be great!
My friends listened to me be speechless when asked about my weekend. They listened to me explain all I got out of the weekend without being able to explain much about the weekend. They looked at each other and laughed. They looked at me just like I looked at the people that invited me to the banquet. With doubt, resistance, and uncertainty
So here it is. What did I need to hear from God? He clearly called me his beloved. That I am loved by him beyond any understanding I ever had of the word love. That if I never do another thing in this world He couldn't love me any more.
It's not about what I do for him. It's all about Him loving me.
There is no guilt. My sins are always forgiven. His call to join Him in bringing the Kingdom of Heaven near is not just to point out my sins or where I'm failing. It's calling me closer to him. Drawing me near. I'm invited to watch His wondrous work here on earth. It's my choice. But He always offers me what's best for me. He may call me to try something new, but it's not to take away His blessings but to shower me with even more blessings.
I know that's as clear as mud. But the important thing is that it's clear for me. It changes the way I see things and the way I hear things. It changes my perspective about other people. I was truly transformed during those 72 hours, and it was and still is glorious. I walk a little taller, I smile a lot bigger, I love so much more. My heart is so full.
What would God say to you?
What does God know you most need to know about Himself?
Beloved, let us love one another; for love is of God, and he who loves is
born of God and knows God. He who does not love does not know God; for God
is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent
His only Son into the world, so that we might live through Him. In this is
love, not that we loved God but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the
expiation of our sins. Beloved, since God so loved us, we also ought to
love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another,
God abides in us and his love is perfected in us. 1 John 4:7-12
1 comment:
Amen, sister! What a great reminder...why do I keep forgetting? Thanks for sharing- love you!
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